Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Excited...
Yes! I'm excited!
God is beyond good. And it is truly exciting to walk with the Holy Spirit everyday of my life.
NNus250 had a prayer meeting today in school. S16 Seminar room 16, Level 4. Jason, my cell group leader was there too. It was a pleasant surprise. He even treated us to lunch! But that's not the main point.
The main point is when he was describing to Yuying about walking with the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit is indeed exciting, but I realised that He's more of gentle than exciting in my life. I can't really put words to it. If you really want to know, experience it yourself!
Anyway, I wanted to say that walking in the presence of God is good. Let's go up to the next level - Abiding in His presence.
Because I chose to dwell in the presence of God.
Because I chose to love Him.
Because I chose to acknowledge him.
Its all about a decision. The right decision made will lead you to the right path.
One day (I think it was two weeks ago), I was praying late at night. I wasn't really praying. I was just worshipping God and getting into His presence and enjoying His presence. In fact, I was rather tired and I actually dozed off a little.
But in my semi-conscious state, I heard God asking me, "What do you want? Ask!" It was a gentle voice that I heard. As I was really dozing off, I took a while to get back to my conscious state and think about what I just heard. God repeated His question to me. And I thought for a while. The only thing that kept coming back to my mind was "SERVE".
Still in my 75% conscious state, I simply told God that I want to serve. He asked again, and I said again, "God I want to serve You." This went on a few times. Eventually it became a prayer.
"God, I want to serve You. Yes, I want to serve You all the days of my life. Lord, I don't just want to serve You, I want to serve You in the way You want me to serve. Use me as You will. All the abilities and the talents, I give to You to use. Use them as how you have planned to use even before I was born. Let me serve You the way You want me to serve You."
After that, I couldn't take it anymore and I ended my prayer and went off to bed.
That weekend was Pst Ulf's service. I didn't have a deep revelation of what he preached. It was more of a preparation for me, initiated by God. It was like God telling me what to do, through Pst Ulf. I went for services 1, 5 and 6. I watched service 4 online too. I wanted to get prayed for, but Pst didn't ask for university students. It was kind of disappointing. However, God didn't just want me to depend on other people to lay hands on me. He wanted me to see things through my own spiritual eyes.
Pst Ulf prophesied during the whole of service 2. It was about church music. I wasn't exactly excited or what. I felt that I was being prepared for it. In a sense, I felt that it was something God wanted me to do.
After somemore praying, I took a step of faith and obedience, I decided to join choir again. There's a long story behind me and CHC choir. Its personal, between God and I and its too long for me to blog about. It's that story which made me so hesitant to go back to choir.
Anyway, I decided and I took another step of faith to tell Jason about it. I asked him if there's any news that choir is going to have an audition. He said no and I just told him to keep a look out for me. I wasn't anxious. There wasn't like peace all over me. I just knew that God has His timing.
During that week, Jiahui told me that the leaders were given ministry recruitment form. I was amazed! God is working! And last week, Jason handed me the form to fill in. Today, he told me that choir audition will be on next Tuesday, 13 Sept 2005, 8pm.
I was really amazed by how God works. He was ALREADY working even before I decided to go choir. He ALREADY paved the way for me. He ALREADY knew what I was going to do. In all of these, He ALREADY had done it. He was just waiting for my consent. How gentle is He!
He has the perfect timing. I had to be patient to go through all the knocking and refining from Him. 7 years isn't short. But all that happened are worthwhile for the things that are to come.
This is only the beginning of what God has planned for me. I really pray that I'll continue to be obedient and I'll continue to fear the Lord. I pray that I'll continue to be faithful to Him and I'll continue to love Him. More each day. Desiring Him more each day.
QUOTE: I want to serve You the way You want me to serve You.
God is beyond good. And it is truly exciting to walk with the Holy Spirit everyday of my life.
NNus250 had a prayer meeting today in school. S16 Seminar room 16, Level 4. Jason, my cell group leader was there too. It was a pleasant surprise. He even treated us to lunch! But that's not the main point.
The main point is when he was describing to Yuying about walking with the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit is indeed exciting, but I realised that He's more of gentle than exciting in my life. I can't really put words to it. If you really want to know, experience it yourself!
Anyway, I wanted to say that walking in the presence of God is good. Let's go up to the next level - Abiding in His presence.
Because I chose to dwell in the presence of God.
Because I chose to love Him.
Because I chose to acknowledge him.
Its all about a decision. The right decision made will lead you to the right path.
One day (I think it was two weeks ago), I was praying late at night. I wasn't really praying. I was just worshipping God and getting into His presence and enjoying His presence. In fact, I was rather tired and I actually dozed off a little.
But in my semi-conscious state, I heard God asking me, "What do you want? Ask!" It was a gentle voice that I heard. As I was really dozing off, I took a while to get back to my conscious state and think about what I just heard. God repeated His question to me. And I thought for a while. The only thing that kept coming back to my mind was "SERVE".
Still in my 75% conscious state, I simply told God that I want to serve. He asked again, and I said again, "God I want to serve You." This went on a few times. Eventually it became a prayer.
"God, I want to serve You. Yes, I want to serve You all the days of my life. Lord, I don't just want to serve You, I want to serve You in the way You want me to serve. Use me as You will. All the abilities and the talents, I give to You to use. Use them as how you have planned to use even before I was born. Let me serve You the way You want me to serve You."
After that, I couldn't take it anymore and I ended my prayer and went off to bed.
That weekend was Pst Ulf's service. I didn't have a deep revelation of what he preached. It was more of a preparation for me, initiated by God. It was like God telling me what to do, through Pst Ulf. I went for services 1, 5 and 6. I watched service 4 online too. I wanted to get prayed for, but Pst didn't ask for university students. It was kind of disappointing. However, God didn't just want me to depend on other people to lay hands on me. He wanted me to see things through my own spiritual eyes.
Pst Ulf prophesied during the whole of service 2. It was about church music. I wasn't exactly excited or what. I felt that I was being prepared for it. In a sense, I felt that it was something God wanted me to do.
After somemore praying, I took a step of faith and obedience, I decided to join choir again. There's a long story behind me and CHC choir. Its personal, between God and I and its too long for me to blog about. It's that story which made me so hesitant to go back to choir.
Anyway, I decided and I took another step of faith to tell Jason about it. I asked him if there's any news that choir is going to have an audition. He said no and I just told him to keep a look out for me. I wasn't anxious. There wasn't like peace all over me. I just knew that God has His timing.
During that week, Jiahui told me that the leaders were given ministry recruitment form. I was amazed! God is working! And last week, Jason handed me the form to fill in. Today, he told me that choir audition will be on next Tuesday, 13 Sept 2005, 8pm.
I was really amazed by how God works. He was ALREADY working even before I decided to go choir. He ALREADY paved the way for me. He ALREADY knew what I was going to do. In all of these, He ALREADY had done it. He was just waiting for my consent. How gentle is He!
He has the perfect timing. I had to be patient to go through all the knocking and refining from Him. 7 years isn't short. But all that happened are worthwhile for the things that are to come.
This is only the beginning of what God has planned for me. I really pray that I'll continue to be obedient and I'll continue to fear the Lord. I pray that I'll continue to be faithful to Him and I'll continue to love Him. More each day. Desiring Him more each day.
QUOTE: I want to serve You the way You want me to serve You.
# posted by Sarah Loke @ 20:25 
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I really like your words about the Holy Spirit moving in gentleness! I have experienced this soft touch as well. Thanks for stopping by my blog! I look forward to meeting you someday in eternity!
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