A penny for my Thoughts

I have a cell group full of creative people.

There are poets and artists in the cell group! I'm really very impressed. Very humbled at the same time too. It just reminds me of how insignificant I actually am if not for God who has brought me this far.

In any case, I'm beginning to like my blog more and more. Its a place I find myself. Its a place I see myself. Its a place I hear God speaking. Its a place I read God's words. Its a place where people are encouraged and I am encouraged.

And I really like the song on my blog. HahAHa!!

QUOTE: Be faithful to do what you can while trusting God to do what you cannot.

云

太阳的使者

看到了吗？那几丝闪闪发亮的云。

密布满天的云
有时是在雨来临前的迹象
有时是大风暴来临前的迹象
有时它只是路过而已

但无论如何
雨后天会晴
大风暴后会有彩虹
云路过后会有阳光

最近有很多云漂浮在你的天空吗？
从云里落下的水能灌溉
也能滋养

当一切的云都消失后
你的天空会是晴朗的
草原也会因此而变得更绿


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Today's prayer meeting was really very refreshing. Nope! I didn't cry though. I don't have to always cry in the presence of God. I don't think anybody would cry everytime he/she sees the person he/she loves. Right? So if you cry almost every cell group meeting or every service, there's something which you need to do about. :)

Anyway, I can't remember if it was when Pst Zhuang was talking to us or when he was praying, but I heard something about attacking the kingdom of darkness.

It came to me as a revelation!

Have you noticed that most people would say something like, "Recently I had a spiritual attack." or "The devil is attacking me. He's attacking my family."?

Why should the devil always be the one to attack us, the believers first? I think we need to 检讨检讨。 Meaning, we have to do some reflection. While Jesus died for three days, He didn't just die. He went down to hell to fight the devil, and of course, our dear Jesus won the battle! He already has the victory! We should just go on and attack HELL!

There may still be spiritual attacks, but instead of waiting for the devil to attack us, lets attack them first!

I don't mean you should let down your guard while attacking. Defence is also very important. Notice what are the equipments in the Armour of God? The helmet, shield, breastplate, girdle, shoes. These are defence equipments. But we also have the sword, which is used to attack!

Let us not be afraid of attacking the devil. The bible says," God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of love, POWER and of a sound mind."

How much can we lose out in this spiritual battle? I think we'll 100% win.

But think about it. If your sword is blunt, how many little demons can u slash? Therefore, we must also be diligent to sharpen our only weapon. Bible says, "Be ready in season and out of season. Preach....." Yes! Use the Word of God! Pray! SPEAK! CONFESS! That's how we can sharpen the sword of the spirit in our lives.

Period.

QUOTE: This is a sermon for myself. But I pray you'll benefit from it too!

Eugene and Kimberly.

They are the joy in the family. They are God sent to my family.
Just by looking at their pictures makes one feel comforted and happy.
There are more pictures of them on my multiply page. Will upload the latest soon.

快乐无边界
什么事， 什么时候
都可以有快乐的感觉

虽然正在经历一些风浪
但我的神还是一个快乐的神
有时脑袋里想到的一些东西
会让我心痛，难过
我却不能因此而感到绝望

/太久没用中文来表达我的心情了/

我不难过，
心痛应该也只是短暂的
因为我的神
任何时候都在安慰我
“没关系，很快就过去了。”

QUOTE: 괜잖아요

So what's the relation between chocolates and revelations?

Nothing much actually. Just that after a few 'experiments', I can almost conclude that chocolate has an effect on me. An effect of making me HIGH after consuming it. Proven and witnessed by Paige. Others might soon see it too.

Alright, I'll try not to eat chocolates. It makes me fat and it makes me high. (Not tall and fat.)

I'm studying right now. Its weird because I don't usually have the mood to sit down at my desk and study my text book. But I'm doing it NOw.

I'm listening to a Korean radio station now. I don't understand what that DJ is saying and I don't understand what the singers are singing. But I'm still listening to it.

I lift my head. Lo and behold! Guess what I saw! There are two newly erected apartment flats right in front of my house! It looks pretty clean and elegant. I used to be able to see the little hill (Bukit Batok Nature reserve) when I look out of my windows, but now its 70% blocked by the apartment flats.


See those two white buildings in the middle?









I tried to be a little artistic. But I think it didn't work out, 'cos everything is not in the right proportion.

You can see the little hill being blocked by the three blocks of flats. They weren't there 10 years ago.

Wow! I've been staying here for 10 years already! Things have changed quite a lot since then. The hawker centres and the marketplace is very different now.




I like this picture. Took all these pictures from my room. Its a pity I don't have photos I took from the same position that were taken almost 10 years ago. I could have put "then and now" pictures. Reliving the past, enjoying the present and anticipating the future.




I thought the lighting is pretty nice. Bright sunlight outside.


QUOTE: God created everything beautiful in its time. So you are beautiful!

My heart melts when I see You
My heart melts when I hear Your voice

My tears flow, my tears flow

Tears of joy and not of sorrow
Tears of love and not of hatred
Tears of peace and not of anxiety

It is You, it is You

It is You that I live
It is You that I am here
I'm made for this purpose
I'm created to worship You

To worship You alone

I am Yours
I belong to You


QUOTE: I hear angels singing.

What's THAT??!!!

예수 = Jesus

Cool? I think its so cool!!! HahahAHa!! I'm just getting very excited over my NEW BIBLE!!! YES!!! Its a bible my cell group member Jianfeng got from Korea! Its a KOREAN BIBLE!!! So it's really exciting ok???

I will master the language. Don't ask me when. I don't know, but I know I will.

Anyway, today's service was great! Heart of Worship...

How many of you heard angels sing before?

For the past two weeks, I think I really heard angels singing. Especially when I worship God in church during service. Its the angels singing in heaven. When we begin to worship God, angels in heaven start to sing also.

"Holy, Holy, Holy is the LORD."

That's what they'll sing. I can see heaven to be filled with singing angels, with God sitting on His throne. Like what Pst Ulf prophesied, we see glimpses of what is to come. Indeed. I think what I saw and what I heard are only a small portion of what is really happening in heaven. I don't think there are only a few thousand angels in heaven. I think there's probably billions of them, because God is a big God.

Keep an open heart when you worship Him. I believe all of us can hear angels singing. The presence of God flows through an atmosphere of worship.

Yes! I'm excited!

God is beyond good. And it is truly exciting to walk with the Holy Spirit everyday of my life.

NNus250 had a prayer meeting today in school. S16 Seminar room 16, Level 4. Jason, my cell group leader was there too. It was a pleasant surprise. He even treated us to lunch! But that's not the main point.

The main point is when he was describing to Yuying about walking with the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit is indeed exciting, but I realised that He's more of gentle than exciting in my life. I can't really put words to it. If you really want to know, experience it yourself!

Anyway, I wanted to say that walking in the presence of God is good. Let's go up to the next level - Abiding in His presence.

Because I chose to dwell in the presence of God.
Because I chose to love Him.
Because I chose to acknowledge him.

Its all about a decision. The right decision made will lead you to the right path.

One day (I think it was two weeks ago), I was praying late at night. I wasn't really praying. I was just worshipping God and getting into His presence and enjoying His presence. In fact, I was rather tired and I actually dozed off a little.

But in my semi-conscious state, I heard God asking me, "What do you want? Ask!" It was a gentle voice that I heard. As I was really dozing off, I took a while to get back to my conscious state and think about what I just heard. God repeated His question to me. And I thought for a while. The only thing that kept coming back to my mind was "SERVE".

Still in my 75% conscious state, I simply told God that I want to serve. He asked again, and I said again, "God I want to serve You." This went on a few times. Eventually it became a prayer.

"God, I want to serve You. Yes, I want to serve You all the days of my life. Lord, I don't just want to serve You, I want to serve You in the way You want me to serve. Use me as You will. All the abilities and the talents, I give to You to use. Use them as how you have planned to use even before I was born. Let me serve You the way You want me to serve You."

After that, I couldn't take it anymore and I ended my prayer and went off to bed.

That weekend was Pst Ulf's service. I didn't have a deep revelation of what he preached. It was more of a preparation for me, initiated by God. It was like God telling me what to do, through Pst Ulf. I went for services 1, 5 and 6. I watched service 4 online too. I wanted to get prayed for, but Pst didn't ask for university students. It was kind of disappointing. However, God didn't just want me to depend on other people to lay hands on me. He wanted me to see things through my own spiritual eyes.

Pst Ulf prophesied during the whole of service 2. It was about church music. I wasn't exactly excited or what. I felt that I was being prepared for it. In a sense, I felt that it was something God wanted me to do.

After somemore praying, I took a step of faith and obedience, I decided to join choir again. There's a long story behind me and CHC choir. Its personal, between God and I and its too long for me to blog about. It's that story which made me so hesitant to go back to choir.

Anyway, I decided and I took another step of faith to tell Jason about it. I asked him if there's any news that choir is going to have an audition. He said no and I just told him to keep a look out for me. I wasn't anxious. There wasn't like peace all over me. I just knew that God has His timing.

During that week, Jiahui told me that the leaders were given ministry recruitment form. I was amazed! God is working! And last week, Jason handed me the form to fill in. Today, he told me that choir audition will be on next Tuesday, 13 Sept 2005, 8pm.

I was really amazed by how God works. He was ALREADY working even before I decided to go choir. He ALREADY paved the way for me. He ALREADY knew what I was going to do. In all of these, He ALREADY had done it. He was just waiting for my consent. How gentle is He!

He has the perfect timing. I had to be patient to go through all the knocking and refining from Him. 7 years isn't short. But all that happened are worthwhile for the things that are to come.

This is only the beginning of what God has planned for me. I really pray that I'll continue to be obedient and I'll continue to fear the Lord. I pray that I'll continue to be faithful to Him and I'll continue to love Him. More each day. Desiring Him more each day.


QUOTE: I want to serve You the way You want me to serve You.

Hmm... I just felt like blogging. But I'm not so sure what I want to blog about.

Or rather, when I felt like blogging I knew what I wanted to blog about, but when I start to blog, I can't remember what is the thing I wanted to blog about.

Please laugh, or don't laugh at me. If you had read my entries, you'd have known that I have this problem all the time.

I think I want to blog about God.

Many times when we give our offerings, we think that it is a test of our faith. I don't just mean offerings, but also tithes and pledges (mission fund, building fund).

However, one day, I was talking to Jiahui and I had a revelation that in all these giving, it is actually not a test of our faith. Its also not just a test of our faithfulness towards God. But its a test of God's faithfulness towards us.

God has been really faithful to me ever since I made my pledge to the building fund. I never had any lack. My pockets always have some spare cash to use.

I believe God has been faithful to you also. Remember to thank Him for His faithfulness. Knowing that its all about His faithfulness towards me, there's no more reason why I have to esteem myself to high positions anymore. Because without Him, I won't be who I am today.

QUOTE: I love Jesus.

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