A penny for my Thoughts

recently i wrote down all the verses in proverbs on the fear of the Lord..

the Word of God indeed is a bread of life.. those verses encouraged me and brought me out of darkness...

exams have just started.. in fact, i just came back frm my first paper - BIOTECH..

i really worked hard for it.. i'm really working hard for every paper... really...

but thank God i'm not gonna explode yet.. thank You my Lord...

anyway.. i'm still very disappointed that my old blog is gone.. i think its gone forever.. i dun think i'm ever gonna 'decorate' this one like wat i did to the old one.. oh well... i just have to face reality..

i just spent some time reading an old friend's blog.. recently got together more often cos i transferred cg.. glad to know that she's doing very well in church, in cg, in sch, in work.. but i seriously dun think i'm the one who brought her to church.. God did.. she was simply open to God when i knew her.. i was just a small little force that pushed her so that she could touch God.. those people who really brought her to church are those who really touched her life.. i didnt..

many times when i think of certain people, i just feel sad... sad that i din do enough for that person when i could have done something.. sad that i've got no capacity to do what was needed to be done... sad that i'm not consistent enough, not faithful enough..

the devil tries to speak to me during those moments.. even now.. as i am typing.. i realise that the devil tries to make me feel guilty.. make me think of myself as unholy, unworthy... i've listened to too much of the devil's words....

my mind should be saturated with God's words..

and now.. i got to go back to study.. it should not only be saturated with God's words but also the words in my notes....


QUOTE: The LORD is my SHEPHERD.

its been a week since i last updated this... seems to be quite long ago.. but its only abt 2 wks.. hehe...

anyway.. look at the title.. wonder why??? its because i totally forgot what i wanted to type in here...

i've been having very serious short term memory recently... sometimes i'll pack up my room nicely n then walk to the kitchen without taking my kettle along to boil water.. n i'll be in the kitchen washing my hands n doing every other things except remembering that my main purpose is to boil water...

i'll open my internet explorer and stare at it.. forgetting what i wanted to do with it...

i'll take out my towel, clothes n everything to prepare for a shower.. leave it on the bed and totally forgot about it until maybe half an hr or so has passed..

i'll walk to jenny's room.. sit on her bed and forget why i walked there for..

i'll go to the dining hall... take my dinner... chope a seat... and forget to take utensils... when i finally got my utensils n walk back to my seat.. i'll realise that i forget to get the soup... after which when i get back to my seat.. i'll realise that i forgot to scoop some chilli to go w the dish....

i'll sing a tune.. and at the end of it.. totally forgot what the tune is...

i'll get to know someone... and after 3 seconds.. totally forgot the person's name... after 1 day.. i'll forget how the person looks... n when i meet that person again.. i dun even realise that i've met that person before...

i wonder why i've been so forgetful...


TO BE CONTINUED......

the presence of God is wonderful.. not just the omnipresence of God.. but His tangible presence...

its the GLORY of God..

was feeling a bit lousy n irritated n unsatisfied n moody n stressed out on saturday before cell group meeting... it wasnt that things were really that bad.. i just didnt feel good...

nevertheless, i went for cell group meeting.. and that was officially the last cell group meeting that i'll be with w140.. i'm moving on to n250.. i believe i am moving on..

anyway, we had prayer meeting before cg.. it was alright.. but God can do wonderful things by showing His presence to us.. i felt much refreshed after cell group meeting..

it wasnt just the praise or the worship.. in fact i thought praise n worship was really so-so only cos my fingers were really painful as i played the guitar.. the word was actually catered for newcomers who came for easter service... so it was impactful, but wasnt the kind that'll really make us cry or deliver us whatsoever.. just a very ordinary cell group meeting.

but i know its the presence of God.. His presence will strengthen.. encourage.. edify... lift up... anoint....

its HIS PRESENCE... HIS GLORY....

seek after His presence... desire to carry His presence...

don't be like the children of Israel, who backed away from the glory of God when His glory came.. and only Moses was the one who drew near to Him... Moses had a real relationship with God..

don't just take it for granted that God is always there.. yes, He is omnipresent.. He's always there for you... but that's not wat God desires... know His heart.. what He desires is a relationship with you... don't back away.. and don't ever think it isnt necessary to draw near to Him..

James 4:8
Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded.

James 4:10
Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord and He will lift you up.

be like Abraham, Moses, Joshua, Enoch, Elijah, Elisha, Jesus.....
They are bible heros who seek after the presence of God..

press in to God's presence. allow His to change your life. crucify yourself on the cross.. stop being headstrong with knowledge u have. let the Holy Spirit take over your soul..

QUOTE: Be LIKE Jesus!