Saturday, January 09, 2010
Life after Birth
Time flies and I had been a mother for the past 2 1/2 months.
It is a joy to wake up and see baby smiling at you after feeding her.
But it was also a nightmare when baby is crying, and you don't know what to do.
I made many mistakes in this short 10weeks. Never in my life had I made so many mistakes within such a short period of time. Having the little Angel made me realise how weak and how blocked I am in my thinking. Or rather how proud I had been thinking I know it all.
Pastor was right. Our children reflects us. If we are secure and live in the faith of God, our children will too because they react to our reactions. Likewise, if we are insecure, our children will react to our insecurities.
I started out my motherhood with fear. The fear of spoiling the child. The fear of not being able to teach the child well. The fear of giving too much to the child. But the truth is, if children are God's gifts to us, why should we fear the gift from God?
In life, fear is something which God had not destined for us. "God did not give us the spirit of fear, but of power, love and of a sound mind." Because of my fears, I ended up feeling distressed. And not only that, my little Angel suffered with me too.
If you ask me, parenting is really not that difficult. "Love is the greatest motivator." When there is love, there is no fear. I will love my baby more than having fear being a parent.
God loved us and He gave us love.
It is a joy to wake up and see baby smiling at you after feeding her.
But it was also a nightmare when baby is crying, and you don't know what to do.
I made many mistakes in this short 10weeks. Never in my life had I made so many mistakes within such a short period of time. Having the little Angel made me realise how weak and how blocked I am in my thinking. Or rather how proud I had been thinking I know it all.
Pastor was right. Our children reflects us. If we are secure and live in the faith of God, our children will too because they react to our reactions. Likewise, if we are insecure, our children will react to our insecurities.
I started out my motherhood with fear. The fear of spoiling the child. The fear of not being able to teach the child well. The fear of giving too much to the child. But the truth is, if children are God's gifts to us, why should we fear the gift from God?
In life, fear is something which God had not destined for us. "God did not give us the spirit of fear, but of power, love and of a sound mind." Because of my fears, I ended up feeling distressed. And not only that, my little Angel suffered with me too.
If you ask me, parenting is really not that difficult. "Love is the greatest motivator." When there is love, there is no fear. I will love my baby more than having fear being a parent.
God loved us and He gave us love.
