A penny for my Thoughts

My brain is going haywire soon.

I studied hard for the test today. At least harder than the previous two times. But the result was worse than the first two times. What's the problem???!!!

Before the test was lesson with Dr. Lim. He is a nice old man. A very professional doctor. And he actually motivated me to want to go and study medicine. After that Lilian Wong talked about pre-reg fair, and she said that according to someone (no idea who it is) NHG polyclinic's pre-reg is very EASY. No tests at the end and every project is done in groups. And that really motivated me to try out for NHG, though I know that it's gonna be a totally boring thing. It may be different if I'm a pre-reg pharmacist though. But -shrugs-...

Anyway, after being so motivated, I felt that I was thrown down 1,000 floors after I had the test. I wish I can hold on to Heb 10:35-36. But I'm strengthless.

So I just went tuition. And I have no idea why I feel SO TIRED. I feel that I've lack of oxygen. 30mins ago, I decided to take a cab home.

This cab driver is not very moral. I wanted to take the shorter way home so that I can save some money. But he turned in the wrong way and the extra route he took costs me more than $1. The final cost was $6.30. If you were the driver, would you charge me $6.30 or $5?

I would just collect $5 from my customer. Cos I made that mistake. And obviously that mistake isn't cheap. I must pay up for the wrong which I did.

What's worse was that driver actually tried to tell me why he went the wrong way. E.g. the roads look the same; old already, cannot remember the roads; sometimes taxi drivers need to remember the roads also not easy; haven't had dinner, so a bit blur.

What the ***********. I've nothing to say. Should I write to COMFORT to complain/suggest? Or maybe I should write to ST Commentary. But its such a hassle. Tell me what I should do?

Remember this song?

Actually it brings back a lot of memories to me. Time really flies. I'm glad I've been catching hold of time since the beginning of this year. Not say time not wasted, just that I've been using time more wisely.

A lot of things on my mind now. My future, my calling and my relationships. I'm kind of stressed out because of all these. I really need to seek God like never before. Fasting and prayers help a lot. And yes, this song reminds me of the time when I fasted forty days. In a way, it saw me through those times. Those were transitional times and now I'm going to go through another transition, even before I know it. Its in my mind.

I've been catching up with long time friends recently. One just came back from Australia and we realised that we've known each other for 10 years. And many are friends whom I used to know, but because of my personality, I chose to lose contacts with them. Actually not on purpose, just so happened that I don't have the habit of keeping contacts with people. So I lose many of them. But thank God, they keep in contact with me.

Probably because I always have a mission in mind when I talk to my friends. I think its not very good, but since I got saved, its just in me. Whenever I meet someone, I'd be thinking of how to share God with them. So in a way it turned out to be not-so-positive. I need more wisdom in making friends.

Making friends and keeping friends had been my soft spot for a long long long time. Sometimes I look unfriendly and sound harsh. Seriously, I don't mean it. Its either I speak or I keep quiet. I'm more frank, so I speak my mind. Sometimes with more thoughts in it, sometimes less. Maybe that's why I prefer to sing.

Can't remember why I came to this topic. Anyway, just sharing some thoughts that's in my mind now.

Have a great day!