A penny for my Thoughts

as the day ends... i just wanna thank God for everything He's brought into my life...

i'm really happy this easter..

firstly, i saw many friends whom i really love a lot coming back to church again.. i'm really excited for them... i must keep praying for them... and keep loving them... not just in words.. but in action... i must enlarge my capacity to love people more.. to show tangible care and concern for them....

secondly, i know i'm going to experience a whole new life from this coming week on.. EASTER 2005 weekend is the last weekend i'm going to be with W140... i love this cg.. but i think i still dont love enough.. there are more i can do but i din do.. i pray that this cg will continue to grow spiritually and also grow in numbers.. i pray that the members will move on to greater heights, greater breakthrough... whether in their own lives or in relationship with people or with God.. breakthroughs that'll make them a royal priesthood... being kings and priests in the kingdom of God...

lastly, i'm really glad that my classmate went to church on friday for easter service too.. nope, she din come with me... cos i din ask her.. she went with her friend (i dunno who also.. haha). but its a good start.. whether she believes in God or not, doesnt matter... what matters is that she went n she heard the message.. i'll continue to pray for her... may God bless her mightily...

all in all... i'm just really very grateful to God.. and i thank God for all these people who has wrote a chapter in my life.. without them... i think my life will be dull and lifeless... God is just so good... i wanna love Him more and more each day...

i realised that i din put any quotes in my last two entries.. so i'm gonna put quotes in my entries again.. :)

QUOTE: Jesus STAYED on the cross JUST for YOU!

First, God showed this:

Isa 55:12
"For you shall go out with joy and be led out with peace;
The mountains and the hills shall break forth into singing before you and all the tress of the firld shall clap their hands."

then it was this:

Isa 55:3
"Incline your ear, and come to Me. Hear, and your soul shal live;
and I will make an everlasting covenant with you -
the sure mercies of David."

whatever these two verses mean, i know God is preparing me for the future.

whether its going to be a big bang or a tough road, it probably doesnt really matter. i got to "incline my ear and go to Him".

that's the preparative statement given to me.

yeah.. its been quite a long time since i last blogged...

i shan't say that not many things happen... in fact, quite a lot of things happened.. but i'm sorry i cant remember them all.. i'll try to blog them down..

first of all, i'm into the third week of staying in King Edward VII hall in NUS. yeap.. its peaceful and i get a lot of things done. i get to go running in the middle of the night around NUs with my good friend/neighbour, Jenny.

secondly, EASTER is coming and its this WEEKEND. there'll be a CELEBRATION at SINGAPORE INDOOR STADIUM on 26 and 27 MAR. please contact me if u wanna join me for this festive season!! my email is fame08@hotmail.com. otherwise, leave a msg on my mobile 97324091.

thirdly, i'm going to experience new life soon. :) praise the LORD... its a new start and i believe God will begin to show me more things... only if i continue to seek after Him daily...

two totally different entries in one day... cos i have too many things to say...

sometimes God brings the most impossible people to us to learn things we most unexpect to learn...

i got to know about this classmate of mine through other people about 2 years ago... and since then, i've began to reach out to her... she's no one special, but i'm drawn to her quite miraculously...

many people are puzzled why the two of us seems to be quite close recently... i'm pretty puzzled myself... but i've been praying for her... i have no idea why i'm so drawn to pray for her so often and so thick skinned (i'm not an extrovert) to go n talk to her so often (online). indeed, we have become quite close recently..

not close in the sense that i tell her what's going on in my mind and everything... but close in that we do talk about a lot of things and we are quite open about the people around us and we talk about them too...

i didnt really know her as a person, until today, when another good friend of mine pulled me to this classmate to clarify certain things that was said by me sometime ago... and i caused some damage in relationships and i felt really bad about it.. that was one of the worse periods of my life..

people might think this classmate seems quite stuck up and hard to approach (which was what i thought initially too) but in fact, she's pretty nice and simple... someone whom i really learnt a lot from through a little shopping today... and i really thank God for it... i know God is using her (who is a non-believer) to teach me life...

i really love this friend of mine a lot... she's one of those who wrote a chapter of my life quite significantly... and i doubt i'll ever forget it.. she really motivated me to study (this is the first thing, of course God was the source) and through the conversations that i had with her, i realised that she's a more simple person than i am... someone who has no pride (of course not 100% lah.. i've yet to know her 100% and there's no one in this world who's 100% free of pride)

why did i say that? because Behind every fear is pride. she doesnt care how people looks at her.. she didnt have a glorious past.. but that didnt stop her from moving on in life.. she doesn't have a complete family... but that didnt stop her from loving her mum and respecting her dad... she doesn't have an ambitious heart... but that didnt stop her from wanting to be in excellence...

in fact, she made me look stupid... she made me feel that i'm really nothing... i'm full of pride... full of ambition... yet not hardworking enough... not forgiving enough... not accepting enough...

but i thank God that i have Him... without Him i'm nothing... with Him... i'm everything...

i thank God for this wonderful friend... she made me want to be a friend... she's not just my friend... but I AM HER FRIEND. i would want to be a friend to her.. a real friend who hides no truth, who's sincere and trustworthy.. a friend who'll love her for who she is... a friend who'll pray for her and protect her... a friend who'll be her friend forever...

please do not be mistaken that i only want to be a friend to her... through all these... i realised that i've been thanking my friends a lot.... and it just hit on me that i've not been a friend to others.... so i got to learn to be a friend to others...

Thank You Jesus for Your love...
Your love saturates my soul...
Your love overflows my heart...

FAther, I pray that Your love will overflow out of me and touch her heart. Touch her with your Fatherly love. Draw her to You, I pray. In Jesus' name, amen.

QUOTE: Without Him, I'm nothing. With Him, I'm everything.

PRECIOUS.

yeah.. He did...

went for 3 nights of conference and 4 services last week... was very tired out physically, but spiritually revived...

i gave a lot for offering... about $100 in total... the normal offerings, for our 8000 seater building, for pst kong... i've never given so much within a week just for offerings before in my life... it was overwhelming... every time i give, i asked God for a guitar.. a good plug-in guitar.. i don't know how its going to happen, but i know it is going to happen.. there are many things i want to buy.. but i believe that watever i sow, i will reap...

so i gave.. until the last service (service 6). i was thinking of how much i should give for that service... thinking and asking God in my heart (i want to be a faithful steward) what is the amount i should give... and i heard God said,"no, you don't have to give any money this service." and i was thinking, is it really God?? n so i asked again and again, yet everytime that was the same reply... "no, you don't have to give any money for offering this service." and i felt that there will be another offering at the end of the service and that's the offering God wanted me to give to... and so i obeyed and let the bucket pass by me...

never did i know that the offering at the end of the service did not cost me my money.... it costs me my life...

it was a powerful sermon on God's calling upon our lives..

1. we are called to salvation.
2. we are called to holiness.
3. we are called to fellowship with Christ.
4. we are called to the body of Christ.
5. we are called to serve.
6. we are called to be Christ-like.

pst ulf prayed a prayer something like this at the end of the service,"Lord, we give You our lives as an offering...."

it shook my heart at once... it was like earthquake in my heart... i felt the presence and the glory of God so strong in my life at that moment... it was so strong and tangible no words could express.

then i heard God speaking to me..."i want you to give your life as an offering. this is what is precious to Me. not the money you give."

i cried...

during the last service, pst ulf told us lots of stories about his life. and all are related to his relationship with God. it was wonderful just to listen to his stories... but deep in my heart as i was listening, i was crying out to God that i will be able to have a relationship with Him like the one pst ulf has with Him... it was a deep cry... a very hard cry from the bottom of my heart...

God is faithful... i never expected Him to speak to me so clearly so soon... i sort of anticipated that if i go home and faithfully discipline my body to pray and seek after Him, He'll speak to me and i'll begin to slowly be able to tap into His presence once again...

God moves when u move...

indeed, as we draw near to Him, He'll draw near to us...

i'll never forget this experience... and i know God is real and He still loves me and accepts me no matter what i've done, no matter how bad i am... God uses the most impossible people to do the most impossible things...

QUOTE: Draw near to Him and He'll draw near to you!