A penny for my Thoughts

I'm listening to this song now:

Thank You
For the promises You made
For the gift of life You gave
Always I will sing You praise

Thank You
For the chance to live again
For Your GRACE that never ends
Always I will sing You praise

Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
My beloved King
To You I sing

You mean everything to me
You're all this world will never be
Your name reigns in my heart
You're all that I depend on

Beautiful song. I especially love the two lines: "For the chance to live again
For Your GRACE that never ends"

It just reminds me of how I walked through the valleys. Many times I failed, many times I grieved the Holy Spirit, many times I turned cold and dead. But more than many times, Jesus picked me up and held my hands. He walked through the valleys with me. Again. And again.

Been thinking of my ex-cgl and my present cgl.

I realised that I do love my ex-cgl a lot. And I love her for what she has done for me, for what she has taught me, for how she has brought me through.

As I thought, I was full of regrets. Why didn't I treasure what I had? Why didn't I press in to her when it was so easy? Why didn't I grow up earlier? Why didn't I listen and learn faster?

Its more difficult now. Its harder now. Its not so easy now.

Although I know what God has for me. I know what is it that I have to desire. But it isn't like before. It was easy before. But I thought it was hard. Now I really have to work ten times harder than before. I need to press in ten times more than before.

But more than regrets, God brought me through those years to show me more than what others would have seen. I'm more seasoned and I'm more matured. I'm not perfect nor have I attained perfection. I can't be bothered by anything else now except that I want to use my talents, my gifts and my experiences to serve my God and everybody who passes by my life.

I thank God for Huiling. And I thank Him for being the ever faithful God.