A penny for my Thoughts

two totally different entries in one day... cos i have too many things to say...

sometimes God brings the most impossible people to us to learn things we most unexpect to learn...

i got to know about this classmate of mine through other people about 2 years ago... and since then, i've began to reach out to her... she's no one special, but i'm drawn to her quite miraculously...

many people are puzzled why the two of us seems to be quite close recently... i'm pretty puzzled myself... but i've been praying for her... i have no idea why i'm so drawn to pray for her so often and so thick skinned (i'm not an extrovert) to go n talk to her so often (online). indeed, we have become quite close recently..

not close in the sense that i tell her what's going on in my mind and everything... but close in that we do talk about a lot of things and we are quite open about the people around us and we talk about them too...

i didnt really know her as a person, until today, when another good friend of mine pulled me to this classmate to clarify certain things that was said by me sometime ago... and i caused some damage in relationships and i felt really bad about it.. that was one of the worse periods of my life..

people might think this classmate seems quite stuck up and hard to approach (which was what i thought initially too) but in fact, she's pretty nice and simple... someone whom i really learnt a lot from through a little shopping today... and i really thank God for it... i know God is using her (who is a non-believer) to teach me life...

i really love this friend of mine a lot... she's one of those who wrote a chapter of my life quite significantly... and i doubt i'll ever forget it.. she really motivated me to study (this is the first thing, of course God was the source) and through the conversations that i had with her, i realised that she's a more simple person than i am... someone who has no pride (of course not 100% lah.. i've yet to know her 100% and there's no one in this world who's 100% free of pride)

why did i say that? because Behind every fear is pride. she doesnt care how people looks at her.. she didnt have a glorious past.. but that didnt stop her from moving on in life.. she doesn't have a complete family... but that didnt stop her from loving her mum and respecting her dad... she doesn't have an ambitious heart... but that didnt stop her from wanting to be in excellence...

in fact, she made me look stupid... she made me feel that i'm really nothing... i'm full of pride... full of ambition... yet not hardworking enough... not forgiving enough... not accepting enough...

but i thank God that i have Him... without Him i'm nothing... with Him... i'm everything...

i thank God for this wonderful friend... she made me want to be a friend... she's not just my friend... but I AM HER FRIEND. i would want to be a friend to her.. a real friend who hides no truth, who's sincere and trustworthy.. a friend who'll love her for who she is... a friend who'll pray for her and protect her... a friend who'll be her friend forever...

please do not be mistaken that i only want to be a friend to her... through all these... i realised that i've been thanking my friends a lot.... and it just hit on me that i've not been a friend to others.... so i got to learn to be a friend to others...

Thank You Jesus for Your love...
Your love saturates my soul...
Your love overflows my heart...

FAther, I pray that Your love will overflow out of me and touch her heart. Touch her with your Fatherly love. Draw her to You, I pray. In Jesus' name, amen.

QUOTE: Without Him, I'm nothing. With Him, I'm everything.