A penny for my Thoughts

am i really that stressed out??

or is it depression???

i doubt it is depression... probably just somethings which kept on repeating in my mind... no answers to it, but it just kept coming back to my mind... and its probably making me going a bit haywire...

stressed? probably..

not sure what i'm stressed about... maybe its that thing again... the same issue that is still in my mind as i'm typing this... somehow i cant let it go...

cos i just want my friend to know that God is there...

i heard stories about this friend of mine... in a way, i know quite a bit about this friend... but i have not seen it with my own eyes... those were just passing comments and some incidents which i heard from people around me... (probably that's y its bothering me so much)...

i love all my friends and i would want to protect my friends from harm.. and most of all.. i want my friends to know Jesus, who can be their best friend...

in other words, i just wanna be a good friend to everybody. a friend who is there when help is needed... a friend who is there when someone needs a listening ear..

sometimes i really think i'm not a people person.. just take cg for example.. how many times have i tried to build relationships in the cg? upteen.. but nothing much accomplished (at least from what i can see).. most of the time i try to get into the lives of others...

probably i'm not too open myself... but i'm too used to being independent (other than the fact that i need God)... somehow when things happen to me, i dun see the need to tell everybody... i only tell some people.. less than 5..

well, i'm getting a bit out of point..

anyway, i know i have a faithful reader here... she's none other than RUTH... haha.. thanks for always reading my blog and giving ur comments for each entry!! thanks!! i appreciate it... a lot!!

this entry is getting nowhere... my ideas seem to be all over the place.. that's true.. i'm not even sure what i wanna write in here... see all the wires tangled up in my brain?

so..... i need a rest..... i need to totally depend on my God alone...

and to the friend that i mentioned above (not ruth), if you happen to read this (i think chances are quite low)... just wanna tell u that no matter what i've heard is true or not (whether from u or from others).. u are still my friend.. and i sincerely hope that God will touch u one day... that u'll live a more fulfilled life.. a more meaningful life... a life full of purpose... i'll pray...

QUOTE: Love others as you love yourself.